A Holiday for Memories

On the 18th of December I had my second chemo appointment with new drugs. The study drugs have been cancelled and the traditional chemo is the next course of action because the cancer had advanced with the study drugs. All in all I am feeling good . The doctor says I am doing well and generally I can agree. next chemo will be in 3 weeks around Jan 8th.

Christmas is coming and everyone left me home alone for the day to go shopping. I wish it were as fun as the movie! I have been catching up on my movie list and Flag of Our Fathers was the feature film last night-thumbs up from me. LaRhonda and I went to the movies and saw Twilight and Blot-the animated dog. Twilight was pretty good but I didn't read the book maybe it would have been better if I had. Blot was very fun and heartwarming-I like dogs! Two paws up for Blot.

I did my Christmas shopping early with Julie for my nephews and neices. I wanted to give them something special from me to remember me always.

I am having a hard time with this Christmas with the reality that it may be my last. I try to stay motivated and optimistic. How is this for optimism? I have lost 47 pounds over the last five months and my eye lashes have grown long and curly and I still have eyebrows that have been tweezed and waxed for optimal good looks. My newest clothes are adorable hats and comfy sweats to match. I also have a couple new wigs to change my look and copy the alias profile when needed. You never know when you will need o be incognito.

Thank you for helping me each day with your thoughts and prayers and messages of love and support. It is so nice to hear from you. I look forward each day to checking my email (rmcmillanlds@hotmail.com) and blog to see who has dropped by for a visit. Be patient with me as I try to get back to you in a timely fashion. Have yourself a Merry Lil' Christmas !

UPS AND DOWNS

It has been quite a long time since any of you have heard from me and of course I apologize. I have had some reall good days where Julie and I have been out Christmas shopping. I have a wound on my leg that is not healing very well and that is what is keeping me down most of the time. It is attached to a wound vac which is not healing as fast as it should because I am chemo patient.If it wasn't fr the wound I wound have some much better days. My family is being so great to me, I couldn't have asked for a better family. I now live with Julie and Wayne (no longer with LaRohnda). I am not going into the details of how that happened but it all turned out for the best and I am right where I should be. Julie and I have alot of fun together and are growing closer all the time. Mom moved into a nice little apartment and of course is fixing it up the Karen way. It is amazing what she can do to find room when we think she has no room left.

December 18th is my next chemo treatment so hopefully I will be feeling good for Christmas. I know longer can use my work email anymore so please use my hotmail account: rmcmillanlds@hotmail.com.

I will post some more pictures when I can find my flash card. I still am trying to up pack this and that. I want to thank all of you for your continued thoughts and prayers. Now that I have better access to a computer I will try to be better at keeping up with weekly activities. RHONDA

Happy Holidays!

This was the picture I took when we were all together for Thanksgiving (Rhondas sister Michelle). It was a few good days and then a few bad days when the chemo started to weigh Rhonda down. Now its back to some good days and just in time to prepare for more holiday fun. I just talked to Rhonda and she was out shopping for Christmas eith Julie and Mom. I think things are a little more settled after all the turmoil of moving.

Rhonda also got a nice treat from friends Caroline Burton and family. Sending a Pollyanna movie with nice thoughts and ideas on dealing with the stress of this illness was a great way to pick up Rhonda for the holidays! thank you to ALL of Rhondas friends and family!

The Days before and 2nd Infusion

I am really sorry it has taken me awhile to update this blog but I do have to tell you that a lot as been going on with our family. I won't go into any details because it is not my place but I will say when it rain it pours.

The first weekend in September we all went to Swiss Days in Midway, Utah. It was fun and crowded. I had never gone before and I don't know I will again. It's like once you go to one Art and Wine Festival (California) you have seen them all. But the best part was being together and having fun. Altogether there was Janine Patton, mom, me, LaRhonda, Markaye and Julie. By the time we got done I was beat and sunburned (oh, oh, not supposed to do that), Julie and Mom were limping, Markaye's back hurt and Janine and LaRohnda were just doing great.

On 9/16/08 I had my second infusion. I thought the day would be a little shorter because we had the routine down but we were wrong. My mom has a great saying "Nothing is ever easy". A few days after the infusion I felt great then I started to crash. I get very tired very easily to the point I can't even keep my head from hitting my plate on the dinner table sometimes, that is when it is time to go home and go to bed. For some reason I can't find the picture for my next infusion. I seem to be having some technical difficulties with my camera and the way to save picutures. I will end this for now and see if I can clear it up for tomorrow. Sorry Gang. Please don't give up on me, I will get better at this. Rhonda

I AM SORRY

9/14/08 - I apologize for not updating this recently but I have not been feeling good for the last several days. Tuesday will be my second infusion and so I will be able to take the time while I am there to do my next big update. So much has happened in such a short amount of time that it is overwhelming to sit down and try to inform all of you unless I have time to just sit with getting sick. As I promised I will always add a picuture when I do anytime of update so here is one to hold you over until Tuesday or Wednesday after 2nd infusion.

Infusion Day

August 25, 2008 - What a long day!! This procedure was to take only 90 minutes and we were at the Huntsman Center for 6.5 hours. Since it was my first infusion we didn't know the ropes and it was very crowded. The lab had to draw more blood after they got the I.V. in and then the blood had to be tested for specific values before they could mix up the Chemo (this is a form of Chemo, not the traditional Chemo and has less side affects). Once the mix was done then they called me back and put me in a nice reclyning chair with a TV attached to with cable. Mom and Julie sat in chairs next to me and kept me company which I really appreciated because this was one day I didn't want to be alone.

My nurse Laurel came around giving us instructions on the medicines and to make sure we were comfortable. She was fantastic and very funny. She gave us so many ideas for car hiking since I cannot hike anymore. So, our next family adventures locally will be car hiking to places like Mirror Lake and Alpine Loop.

A volunteer person came around every 1/2 hr with snacks and drinks so we were not in need of anything except for the day to end, it was very exhausting. I also started the other drug on Monday of which I take every night. The daily pill will have a few more side affects but nothing we can't handle. My next infusion is 9/16/08 and they swear that one should only take 60 miniutes since we have the routine down.

8/28/08 All in all I feel pretty good. This morning I went for an injection in my right shoulder for severe pain that has been lasting for about 2 weeks. I won't be able to have any surgury on it because the medicine lowers my immune system and healing process for any cuts, surgeries (which are out of the question) or anything that breaks the skin or gums.

I am so thankful I have my family and friends while going through this. My heart goes out to those who have to do it alone. Thank you and I love you all very much....

Silly Michelle in my go cart at Target